01:16

01:16

   Desember 17, 2019       Fajrina.

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this time,
just finised ate my food, i know it's too late,
something hits my mind,
oh wait,
not now?

but it won't hear you.

this time,
the question was so absurd,
it was like, do you ever been in a situation that you want to be this and that,
but don't know how to start,
where to start.

i tried to remove all of the sadness,
one by one.

but still....
some pieces are missing.


i ended up,
still wondering.

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beautiful.

beautiful.

   Agustus 29, 2019       Fajrina.

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what is the definition of beautiful?

what is the concept of beautiful?

what is the meaning?

what is the use?

what is it?

beautiful is such a hard words to explain, people might say they know it very well.

but, they don't.
and, come to think of it.
we can really tell it if someone or something is beautiful,
until we experience it by ourselves.
i had seen so many beautiful faces and beautiful soul.
i barely found those two in one person.

a friendly reminder, beautiful is not always in the face.
in my opinion, the most beautiful one is come from the soul.
you can't really beat 'em with that beautiful face of yours.
so, while we are realized it, don't forget about beautiful soul.

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?

?

   Juli 10, 2019       Fajrina.

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people pour up their feelings in the different ways,
so this is my way.
it has been happening for a while now.

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there is a bunch of people who live here,
a billion heartbeats,
they are take a breath,
they are living,
they have their struggles,
and definitely they have feelings.

in a world full of strange things,
we tried so hard to hang in here,
we tried so hard to hold ourselves,
we try.
but oftenly,
people can put you in miserable feeling,
confused feeling,
sad feeling,
upset,
weepy,
unhappy.
with intention or without intention.
just because they want you to be what they want to be.
they do it.
for the sake of their feelings.

but, you know.
those mixed feeling could made someone lost hope,
to make up the situation,
to try to find up a way,
until, they don't hope too much,
and say never cared again,
to ignore the things.

when that time is coming,
the only thing we can do is thank you for the experienced of growing up.

so the notes i want to say is,
do not act up like you are the only person who have a feeling alone in this world,
you are not the only one,
don't put someone in a miserable position,
if you can't be any help,
just be quiet and just stay still,
don't put any burdens.

just..... be wise.
just like what you always say with words.
show me with your action.
i'd be thankful and glad.

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if you can understand my words,
this is a sad post.
a bit selfish.
and what you can do is just leave it alone.

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saturdry.

saturdry.

   April 24, 2019       Fajrina.

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16:15.
24/04/2019.

A simple hello and welcome in a short time.
A simple personality.
A wonderful person.
Unpredictable time.

The right person, maybe, in the right time.
There is something that bothering me, regarding this kind of moment.
It will dry or rain?
Or it will be like Saturday, that everyone gonna like it?
I know it will be a hard question to answer.

It's rain from the first time, the skies.
The rain is falling to pouring the dry flowers.
But the dry side of me, has blooming.

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It was such a surprise that the people I really love is loving me more than I do..
I feel so happy, until I can't explain, but uneasy in the same time.
Should I be glad or hate it?
Such a mixed feeling ever, I never know the answer as well.

Just enjoy my Saturday moment and I won't let it dry.

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in this sunny day, something attacks me.

in this sunny day, something attacks me.

   Maret 29, 2019       Fajrina.

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when i cracked up a glass,
i miss the sound that i didn't hear a bit long time,
the sound that i miss all of sudden,
that is the sound of someone's nagging.

it might be weird,
but that is how i felt.

you know,
when you miss someone but you still have uneasy feeling left inside your chest?
you probably can't understand it if we aren't in the same boat.

i just understand,
nagging is not always mean they are angry,
there also a caring feeling when they are angry,
and once again, i just knew it so late.

when she stopped nagging,
i was waiting for it,
but she didn't do it.

is this 'unfortunate story' or 'missing someone killing you slowly' story?

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