Rainy and Cotton Fleece.
from the very first day,
the rain accompanies us as a witness of our sincerity.
it was hard for me, but weirdly, I accepted it all.
maybe, it will be the last and longest.
in the previous post, i ever asked "will it be dry or rainy?"
never knew both options were the worst.
then, it has happened now.
i lost myself and am still on my way to finding them back.
but the other side of me has turned numb.
it's comfortably numb.
keep the "cotton fleece" with you.
so that i can stay on your mind for a long time.
and it will hurt you.
i hope you will always remember it whenever you wear it.
i hope so.
someday you will realise that all of the things i do for you are the hardest things.
just like what you think that you are the only one in the hardest position.
you can't change your life, glad you didn't take mine forever.
i hope you will always remember me every night.
and i hope you have hope that i will send you a message.
or when you throw some code, i won't give a dang bout it.
because i know you did.
i hope you will always remember that you want to push everyone,
but you end up keeping in touch with everyone,
i hope you remember every sweet side of me every night,
and it will kill your mind.
i hope you'll change for yourself for the purpose of not being a rainbow again,
i hope you understand the meaning of last forever.
you will remember it.
i know, you will.
you'll remember you told a joke to my dad bout something serious.
you will remember it.
you'll remember the fake hope as serious hope.
i hope you will remember and it'll never fade away.
- f