friendship.
[this post gonna be a bit emotional]
what is the meaning of friendship?
is that necessary?
i think they will always around as always.
no matter what happen.
that is what i thought.
i thought they will stay forever.
but that is wrong.
i never imagined this before,
i never thought they will really go away and cut down the communications,
they even disappeared.
i never blame them,
i just still wondering what is my fault?
at least give me an explanation,
at least give me a hint,
at least tell me what did i do?
i think our friendship gonna be last forever,
and we won't ever be in this kind of situation,
i think we will always be fine,
but that is all of the thoughts when i never learn something from the past,
when i was an innocent and stupid.
now, losing friends are the real problem for me,
but i think i won't thinking much about it,
people might see i just exaggerating things,
but i do and don't care.
the more i'm thinking about it,
the more i've been blame myself.
the real lesson about this is,
learn how to letting go,
learn how to accept reality,
learn how to accept the things that doesn't happen like what i've been expected,
so many new things i have been learnt.
another important fact is,
losing friends is a part of growing up,
cool, i can count it as a part of growing up from now.
i still have a sense that they are still there,
but we are just didn't meant to be friend in a long term,
and we are being apart, because we have different goals and that is naturally happened.
maybe?
it's okay.
maybe this is my fault for ever do something wrong,
that is how i always said to myself.
not trying to playing as a victim though.
this is the last message i want to drop here,
regarding this topic,
thank you for everything, we had so many good memories,
thank you for ever count me in as your close friend,
if you read this, you might know this is about you,
say hi is okay,
and ignore this is okay as well,
i just want you to know that i really want to know how is your condition now,
thank you and sorry.
